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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2005|12:57 pm]
thispathimon
isn't it funny how often we will place blame of a situation outside of ourselves instead of considering what we could have learned about ourselves from the situation? amusing thing, ego. and powerful, too.

humility =/= lack of self confidence.
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goetia = pfizer? [Aug. 20th, 2005|10:30 am]
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Here's a brief article comparing the Goetic entities (such as Valefor, Zepar, Focalor) to... well... pharmaceuticals (such as Prozac, Strattera, Xigris).

and then...

"...when I look at the cross of Jesus Christ, when God sent his own son to die to take away my sin, I know that God loves me." I mean, are these people even listening to what they're saying? They are saying: Such and such cares for me, because such and such intentionally had somebody important to him killed. It all sounds very mafioso, if you look at it strictly from that context. "Well, I know Jimmy loves me because he had Johnny whacked... What? No I don't really know why, but he said it was so we could be together, and that it would be good for business." ... Actually, the interesting thing is that this is really very close to the Gnostic interpretation of the Jesus/God face-off. In Gnosticism, the God we call Yahweh isn't really the true god, and didn't really create the universe. He's just arrogant and thinks he did. They call him Ialdabaoth, or the Demiurge. Above and beyond him is Sophia, the Divine Wisdom, and she sort of sends Jesus down to infiltrate, and to teach us how to achieve salvation through gnosis, inner knowledge, the inbreaking of Sophia's spark. But then Yahweh/Demiurge gets wind of this, and has Jesus whacked, in order to maintain his stranglehold over our plane of existence and keep humanity under his heel. And then he crafts this whole erroneous story about how Jesus's promised salvation for us is NOT through gnosis, but through this bullshit act of him being fucking murdered, because God "loves" us so much. -source
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hekate [Aug. 20th, 2005|12:08 am]
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an article on hekate
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jesus appears to mary first [Aug. 9th, 2005|03:39 pm]
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16Jesus said to her, "Mary." She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, "Rabboni!" (which means Teacher).
17Jesus said, "Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet returned to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, 'I am returning to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.' "
18Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: "I have seen the Lord!" And she told them that he had said these things to her. John 20:16-18
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crazy dreams [Jul. 20th, 2005|07:46 pm]
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Took a nap today. Been moving stuff and wanted to take a snooze before I continued. I had a weird dream, and another one last night. This one, I was walking down a sidewalk, and was being moved quickly down it. I saw a limo, and it was the pope who was going to see some memorial, for it was some special day honoring whomever this memorial was dedicated to. I was upset that I didn't have time to take a picture, for how often does one get to see the pope in person. So, I ran back, though I wasn't supposed to, and it occured to me that the pope, for some reason, signified "rebirth". He was getting back into his limo, and I was attacked by a dog, or maybe it was more than one. No one helped me.

Then, fastforward to the apartment where we are now. I was playing some instrument- it was like big like a cello, but shaped like a banjo. It was really tall, and the lowest string was loose. It was a sandy color. Then all these people came into the house, my husband's family, but also my ex-husband. They were all there to clean up our apartment, for they said I was being incredibly lazy. I woke up really pissed off, ready to convince the world that I'm not lazy. (Look out, world!)

Last night's dream really freaked me out. I dreamed I left my two children alone at a grocery store for just a moment. When I returned, my daughter was acting like she was on drugs, and my son was playing really rough with another, older boy. I kept calling to my son, bt he didn't hear me. I looked closer at him, and his jaw looked deformed. He had put some of those ABC magnets down in his ear, quite a few of them. I was able to push some of them back up and out of his ear, but there was one that was stuck in between two nerves, which I could see. They looked like big, bulging veins. Everytime I tried to move this magnet, the nerve-veins would twitch badly. There was a nurse nearby, and she was going to take us to the hospital, and I was worried about having left them alone, and scared they would be taken away from me.

These dreams were not pleasant. They were also very vivid, as I can recall them fairly well even now.
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(no subject) [Jun. 30th, 2005|10:21 am]
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http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

Secret postcards.
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Spelling Nazi-English Genius [Jun. 29th, 2005|05:49 pm]
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Spelling Nazi & English Genius Test ResultsCollapse )
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(no subject) [Jun. 29th, 2005|05:03 pm]
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The Philistine Test ResultsCollapse )
"So ambitious, that you wanted to defy the armies of God and challenge them for their claim to the promised land."
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(no subject) [Jun. 27th, 2005|09:06 am]
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Take the MIT Weblog Survey
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(no subject) [Jun. 22nd, 2005|02:40 pm]
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so inspired to write last night. the words filtered through to my consciousness; sweet, generous, beautiful. but i was lost in my contentment and did not want to disturb my near-slumber as i laid next to you, quiet, peaceful.
and you left a sweet memory inside me that i did not move to erase, but simply let it exist there.
and you were not there any longer.
i hungered for you so
though you were just right there
i hungered for you so
though you were only right beside me.
of openings and holy grails
of which men have sought and sought
but i kept a secret that i
hold it right here
oh, holy grail,
for you.
for you.
you.
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